Its definately very easy for you to point out my flaws and weaknesses. My whole journey with you aint only mistakes right? How bout the rest? Think about it.

I have to say, you are being too comfortable in this relationship. You demanded for an ultra makeover in me. Reason is to suit you of course. So that you wont feel the slightest uneasy-ness. How would I feel? Think about it.

You claimed that you currently have alot in mind, very stressed up. Hoping I wont be another burden for you. Burden? Since when love is a burden? Think about it.

A million sighs wont be able to express how disappointed I am at you. *roll eyes*

december eleventh

First meal of the day was dimsum at somewherenearby together with YX. Since I'm still on for my diet plan, I ate awfully little compared to the usual. Sigh.

Then, the rest of the day was spent at The Curve-Street-Cineleisure. All we do is just walking around while waiting for Kev Joel Joji Matt. Your highness being completely indecisive between the movies, at last we went in Borders, sit down on the carpet and watch KungFuPanda with the rest of the kids.

Yeay, kids. -_-". come on, I personally love kids kay.

So that makes the three of us, being strangely looked at. No la, after that we went to the theater for TheDayWhenTheEarthStoodStill. blardy long name. Dinner was at WinterWarmers.

It sounded warm indeed, out of the heavy downpour. There's a very nice liveband which bb was very tempted to grab their guitar and sing-along. Uber cuteness, aint it. The boys planned for MOS after that and ta-da.

I miss those time when we literally live together.

Happy 20th Birthday sweetheart <3

The Eve

We arrived at OU around 1.30pm. While waiting for bb to reach, I followed the mom to do some shopping at British India. Man, he took like forever to reach, I was so jumpy. To my horror, he showed up with a rather shocking hairstyle. wakaka. We had lunch at Good Evening Bangkok. It was pretty nice overall, despite all the bullets of nags into his face. =p All of us went on our separate ways to shop after that. Did I mentioned that shopping time was awesome? Well, of course! =p Dinner was at Fatty Crabs. I missed that place so much, aye friends? =)

We headed home right after bidding good bye to the family. With much anticipation, he opened his pressies before even waiting for his actual birthday. Well, I bought him a guitar, as requested. hmm. I supposed he would like it very much, not until the enjoyment lasted him so short. It was then sitted beside his EX guitar, on the floor. Sigh. Kepohchis arrived, Matt and Nich. And they came up with the most brilliant idea that is to Blitz! '' oh great. '' I told Bill this would reminisce the time we used to have in FTZ. hee. It was until 4am we went home. Sleep! Finally.

Home Sweet Home!!

Thought 1
I have been home for two full weeks. It has been a good time with the family and friends. Life now is so carefree, nothing better than resting before the start of another new year. I am currently taking up driving lessons. Hopefully in no time, I can repay my drivers after so long of utangs. =p '' gear 1.. clutch.. then gear 2... '' right mou?

Thought 2
High school friends are still as awesome as ever! The love is so overwhelming. Thank you much for the suprise party at After7! To everyone, millions of hugs and kisses. I'm 18, finally. fuuu.
In my days in Kuantan, been out for many yc sessions with the lovely people. Its nice to know that the internal jokes and teases were not forgotten.

Thought 3
Sayangs from KL are back! at last. Yes, Jane and Nicole! To Jane: Kee irritated me because you were not around. *stress* To Nicole: Story-telling time!! *gossips* To both: Oh how I miss our midnight A&W moments. *aww..*

Thought 4
I will be going down KL tomorrow to see bb! His birthday is coming soon by the way. Oh loves!
It has been weeks since I last see him. Suprise me, suprise you. (=

Thought 5
Have you ever thought of doing something crazy? No? With no certainty of the consequences, gather up all the guts and just go for it. Something like now-or-never kind of scene. The kick sure feels fun. (= At least there is no regrets left behind.

Thought 6
I need a wardrobe makeover. Right bb?
Red light for my laziness.
I love my nails, I know you do too. =p

Thought 7
Christmas is coming! My favourite decorated trees... beautiful pressies...
*stares and dreams*

Silver Bells

I am currently addicted to online boutiques.

Nothing better than doing what a girl do best, shopping that is.

Try thinking no more fuss taking off and putting back clothes for fittings,

no more need to carry big and small bags around,

somemore at a lower price, who can resist, you tell me.

And now, because of that, I'm so broke. )=

I'll be seeing my bb in seven days!

happy birthday baby.

I'm sorry baby.
Being with you is the best thing that ever happened to me.
You know you'll never have to fight for me,
mainly because you'll always have me.
I love you my little birthday girl.
I really do.


We're perfect
together







How can i be complete without you next to me.


Happy Birthday
Baby



Forever yours,
bill.

....sigh....

'' You only stick with me for my friends. ''
'' You only stick with me for my name. ''
'' I doubt you ever love me before. ''
'' You are the worst girlfriend ever. ''
'' You are just being a bitch. ''

Imagine that.

Maybe I'm not good in putting it into sentences, that supposed to come out from my mouth over the phone. Thats why I kept silent. Maybe you didnt notice, I'm not blind of feelings. I am very hurt deep down. I am sorry if you are sick of my egoness, my immaturity, or just me. You should know me by now, I thought. I am sorry if what I did all these months are nothing and shits to you. You always acclaim of what you did for me, how much you did for me, all the troubles you went through for me. Just like you are the - - - - est between the two of us. Never came across your mind that I, actually sacrificed too? I guessed not. I promised to change but not expect it overnight.
These two days, I acknowledged the incidents at its least severity. I dont understand why is it a breaking point for both of us. '' A broken promise is a broken promise, '' you said. I am still unable to figure out, why is there no more compassion, no more love. '' I'm the one always come back to you, saying sorry. I'm tired, and about to burst. '' I broke a promise, you felt inferior. I got all the nasty words in my face, all the while I kept quite not? I bare it down not? I'm the one about to burst, I'm the one tired. Ultimately, I'm the one hurt.
I choosed to be bounded, to be controled over, to be ordered, to be everything you want me to be.

You asked me to win you back.
You asked me to fight for you.
Despite everything,
I will win you back. I will fight for you.

.....its because I truly love you.