....sigh....

'' You only stick with me for my friends. ''
'' You only stick with me for my name. ''
'' I doubt you ever love me before. ''
'' You are the worst girlfriend ever. ''
'' You are just being a bitch. ''

Imagine that.

Maybe I'm not good in putting it into sentences, that supposed to come out from my mouth over the phone. Thats why I kept silent. Maybe you didnt notice, I'm not blind of feelings. I am very hurt deep down. I am sorry if you are sick of my egoness, my immaturity, or just me. You should know me by now, I thought. I am sorry if what I did all these months are nothing and shits to you. You always acclaim of what you did for me, how much you did for me, all the troubles you went through for me. Just like you are the - - - - est between the two of us. Never came across your mind that I, actually sacrificed too? I guessed not. I promised to change but not expect it overnight.
These two days, I acknowledged the incidents at its least severity. I dont understand why is it a breaking point for both of us. '' A broken promise is a broken promise, '' you said. I am still unable to figure out, why is there no more compassion, no more love. '' I'm the one always come back to you, saying sorry. I'm tired, and about to burst. '' I broke a promise, you felt inferior. I got all the nasty words in my face, all the while I kept quite not? I bare it down not? I'm the one about to burst, I'm the one tired. Ultimately, I'm the one hurt.
I choosed to be bounded, to be controled over, to be ordered, to be everything you want me to be.

You asked me to win you back.
You asked me to fight for you.
Despite everything,
I will win you back. I will fight for you.

.....its because I truly love you.

These photos were taken at the last night during my

stay in Subang, which, wasnt very long ago. And

mymy, I missed them so very much already. =/

It was a sumptious dinner at Tony Roma's, since

its a post exam celebration for myself and miss Jane.

Had lots of fun with the fitting sessions before dinner,

but some broke people decided not buying the funs.

Unfortunately Bunbun was not feeling very well

that night. He only ordered caesar salad.

Over the phone he said he is going to be late for an

hour for the dinner, then I was pretty upset.

So happened that I came out of the fitting room

in Forever21, he was already waiting outside, aww

not only that, he also bought me that piece that I wanted!

Man, I was thrilled!

It was only nine and we planned to sleep already. Lol.

He ate the pasta I cooked for him when he woke up hungry.

But he did not finish it. =(

And now, I'm sick like toot toot.

'' honey, i wan cuddle.. ''

one stop shop

I WANT TO SELL MY BOOKS.

Its TAYLOR'S SOUTH AUSTRALIA MATRICULATION programme,

SAM in short.

Consist of GENERAL SCIENCES subjects-

BIOLOGY, PHYSICS, MATHEMATHICS, CHEMISTRY,

compulsory ENGLISH as SECOND LANGUAGE and MORAL.

Comes with - COMPLETE SET OF NOTES (except Chem, my treasure)

and PASSYEARS PAPERS.

That Is All You Need

Price negotiable. Promote please? (=

It takes time

Me Myself and I: YES! Finals is sooo ooovvverrr.

I'm so glad that finals was actually over. It feels good as though putting down tons of rocks weight of burden. My my, it sure feels damn syok. What feels better than lepaking around kl with the most loved and beloveds. Watched all the movies in 2days! Madagascar2, The Coffin, HSM3, and 007.

Prom comes approx. a week after finals. I only start preparing two days ahead. Apparently not only me, but number of them did not start early either. It was kind of a rush, but I just manage to pull it through, getting the basics.

Prom was awesome, despite the gathering with my fellow classmates, the performances was ookay because my table wasnt infront, I'm not very tall, and I'm having blur sight that night. Hmm. Man, the food was delicious. I starved the whole day for it, so I think it better be good. And I can say, it's worth the starving! Or maybe I'm just overly hungry.

mean: Oi Nics, lets take pics before we go down!
nics: Oh kay! walking to the mirror.
mean: Oh Sharks!
nic: never charge lehhh.
mean: fully charged okay...forgot the memory stick, stucked in my lappie.
ahh, GREAT. *sulks*
nics: -_-".............

Sad la, finally I finished my SAM programme. So short and its now history. Dang.
Not to mention the coming future is yet to be clear......

And I'm back in Kuantan! (= / )=
I missed BunBun the most! And the rest second most. =P

Loves.

I'm trying

im trying to understand you.
i hope in time i will know u inside out.
you're angry now..
i dont wanna stay home beside you because we will quarrel over nothing..
will come back with your icy cold spritzer..
i love you honey.